Timmy,
I know I have not been the father to you since your death that I would have been in life. I’m sorry for the lack of tears I have cried and the silence I have maintained. Losing you was shocking and so wrong. It goes deeper than my heart is allowing me to feel and is bigger than my brain can master.
What I know is that you were a special and amazing little boy and I feel the loss of the relationship we were forming and the person who you would have become. I feel you have given us a glimpse of that person in Little Buddy, as he is as spectacular in his way, as you were in yours. I thank you for that – I thank you as a father and a husband for bringing that joy back into our lives.
I thank you for watching over our family and making sure we are together and safe. I want you to know that I love knowing you are very much a part of what we do and who we are. I want you to know that you give me courage to be better than I am.
Timmy, I want you to know that you are my son and always will be and that I look forward to the day we meet again. I look forward to being the dad I know I was going to be, to a son as remarkable as you.
I love and miss you very much,
Dad
